visitors

it’s been such a pleasure to have company for the last few days.  alejandro and sebastian have added youthful joy and innocence to this place.  alejo left for valencia this morning and seba almost started to cry, they’ve become like brothers , in fact i think all of our bonds have strengthened. 

this evening seba nervously came to ask me if i could stay in his room until he fell asleep.  the boy has travelled all alone throughout south america, europe and the u.s. but is petrified of the dark.  we ended up talking for hours about goals, girls, parents, travelling and school, but now i think he’s finally on the road to dreamland.  my company has given me a much needed breath of fresh air.  how i adore watching them grow, knowing that the next time i spend time with seba the pristine naivety will have begun to fade.  i enjoy it when they correct me and question my suggestions.  i do hope i can retain an outlook like this when i have kids.  my mother hated my questioning, a sign of rebellion and defiance.  but really i feel proud (not that i believe i’ve made a significant contribution to their development, but i’d like to take a little bit of credit) when i see these self-assured, thinking and capable boys.  they give me hope, hope for not only tomorrow or today but hope for myself as well.